FreeWrite: Finished Reading The Bell Jar

So I've just finished reading The Bell Jar and boy,was it depressing! I liked the main character and I could relate to her frustration, but I think it was a tad bit confusing at times. The author seemed to jump around a lot, she talked a lot about her future and past intervening with her present. It was too much for me at a point. I think if the sequencing of the story had been better, I would've definitely rated this book as my favorite. I had a lot of questions about Esther [SYLVIA!(the author) since this was a semi-autobiography], because she wasn't married when she went into an asylum but stated that she was expecting.It didn't make sense to me, because everything had to be inferred. Something that disturbs me about this book is that it was based on an actual life and it made me really depressed. I didn't like how Sylvia[Esther(character in the book]) had to go through so much and couldn't discuss it with anyone. She was let out from the asylum thinking everything had been normal but then years later she committed suicide!! When I was on the subway reading this book, a gentleman who was about 50 years old saw me reading it and he started discussing Sylvia Plath's life with me, he said how he was very depressed when he read this story and felt sorry for Sylvia because at one point, she couldn't take it anymore and instead of talking it with someone like her husband[WHO IS NOT MENTIONED IN THE BOOK] or her mother[who she accuses and says she hates in the book]. Even I felt sad for Sylvia because she was trapped in an asylum with crazy women who all thought Sylvia was going to be sent to the state asylum but she made it through. My response to when Sylvia is given electric shocks was horrific. I felt really sympathetic towards her because she was scared to get electric therapy because it hurt her a lot, she would see blue volts and would cry for help but no one would help her.Another regret I have for Sylvia is her mother..she was an inconsiderate,selfish woman, even Sylvia hated her. After her psychiatrist sessions, instead of helping her become normal again and arranging several appointments with other doctors, her mother just told her that she would be fine and sometimes even blamed her for such behavior. After that, Esther tried four ways to commit suicide which was unbelievable because she seemed fine to others but she didn't want to be alive. I blame her mother for her insanity, she took away her father's love and never provided her with sensible care. Also I want to give her credit for giving her book this amazing title. Through the first five chapters, I didn't know why the book was called THE BELL JAR but later in the book her explanation made so much sense to me. She had seen a couple of human fetuses in bell jars at a labor room who were not alive. After she was put in an asylum, she imagined herself as one of those in a bell jar,waiting for someone to twist the lid off and let her escape.In honor of Sylvia Plath, who took her life at the age of 32 because of emotional,psychological disorders.
(I WISH YOU HADN't~~!)